A year ago, you couldn’t tell me that I’d be doing any of the things I’m doing right now.
I was just getting into story and indie games, trying new things, and trying my hardest to push my boundaries without breaking. I admit, I kind of broke.
I was playing a DramaSystem game in which a volcano had erupted and we were dealing with the fallout – near-post-apocalyptic, basically. It was a good game in a lot of ways, but it happened at a confluence of mental health problems: my bipolar had gotten much worse, and my anxiety was at a peak. This, combined with the highly emotional nature of the game – dealing with parent issues, relationship issues, and agency issues – made my experience heightened and resulted in some serious troubles for me.
I had dreams of writing more for Gaming as Women, and more in general – what if someday I could maybe write for a game? Wouldn’t that be cool?
I had put Clash away and was pretty sure Tabletop Blockbuster wouldn’t go anywhere.
Even going to Origins and Gen Con was a terrifying prospect – I didn’t know if I could do it.
I had hopes of doing my own game day.
This year, I’ve gotten my bipolar and anxiety mostly under control. Getting my shit together has been a hard road, but I’m hoping it means more good stuff.
I’m in multiple games: a DramaSystem game (which I’m running), a Clash game, two Tabletop Blockbuster games (one of which I made up the entire world for), a Monsterhearts game, and somewhere in there an unfinished Wolfspell game.
I kicked myself in the butt (okay, other people kicked me in the butt) and I’m working actively on Clash, playtesting and hoping to get it in people’s hands as a published product. Tabletop Blockbuster is also in the queue, still as fun as ever and looking like it has real potential!
I’ve also been writing for games, and for more than games! I’ll be in The Fate Codex with my short cyberpunk story. I’ll be finishing up my setting for Call of Catthulhu (Steampunk cats!). I even did a short stint writing for FASA’s new gameline, 1879.
You can see me at Dreamation, Maelstrom, Origins, Gen Con, and Metatopia. I’ll be holding NerdPITT’s second event, the Winter Games, on January 25 in Pittsburgh.
What’s next? I have no idea, but I’m super excited.